His Purpose.

Over the last couple of weeks, God has been doing some work in this heart of mine, that is for sure! It still amazes me that through anything and everything in life that who He is is CONSTANT. Who He is does not change. His love really does endure forever. In learning more and more about who He is and who He is for all of us, I can get caught up in trying to do the same for me. Im always wondering and asking the qustions.. What should the next step should be?, where I need to be??, what I need to be doing , Who i need to invest in?, Where do i need to live ?, Where do i need to work ?


I dont know if i have ever been at the point where I am now, in realizing that the "I"s dont matter. I was not created to work where I want to work , do the things that I want to do , Love those I want to love, Move to the places I want to live. My whole purpose in ever being created.... is to live the life that God has called me to live. My whole purpose may never be to get married, have a family, own a Salon... ( throwing that desire out there ; ) My purpose is Him. To love the way HE loves. To live the way HE lives. To Be an example of who HE is. ....


I am a woman who wants to see big things happen. A girl who wants to make a difference in the lives of all that are around me....and more so those that arent. I am a girl who wants to be a light to those in the dark. I am a woman who wants my whole focus to be on Him and Him alone. I want to love , honor and cherish all that He has done for us. I want to go where He sends me. I want to be Silent enough to hear just where that is. I want to help further His kingdom , and bring people to Him. My life is not my own to live. I am a woman who wants to do her best at keeping Christ the center of my every day thoughts, decisions, and next steps.

" God , My prayer to You is to help me live this out. Thank you for being the God you are."
Amen.

Birthday Boots : )

Happy Birthday to me :) . wow. Its crazy to think its been 23 years since Ive been here on this earth . Its even crazier to think about all the places I have been and seen, the friends I have made a long the way, the places I have moved to, away from ,etc. Its a blessing to look back over the last years and see just how good God is. When i look back , its obvious to see the things that i don't want to though. Its easy to remember the not so easy moments, the rough memories, the times when I have been disappointed. The times that didn't then, and still don't make perfect sense. Man if you know this girl at all ...its been 23 years of " I dont know" and " Im confused". Its been 23 years of "What if this?" " What if that? ".Golly thank you all who have been a part of it. I know it can be rough loving on me at times. ha.


This year is gonna be different. Im gonna make it different, and pray for God's strength to make it a better year than ever before. I want to stop the questioning. I want to stop the worrying and i want to stop the What ifs. Gods been doing a number on this heart over the last month, and I am so ready to see where He takes me next. Im ready to stop dwelling on the the things of the past, of the things that i dont understand , and focus more on the one thing that has remained constant over the last 23 years.... Who God is. His unfailing love. What He did for ME, for all of us. : ) ...




I pray its a sweet day for all of you!


" I will praise you forever for what you have done; In YOUR name I will hope, for your name is good" Psalm 52:9

Way to long.

Its definitely been awhile since Ive wrote and boy the places life has carried me. Ive been writing here and there on papers around the house and during quiet times writing out things randomly. I had the great idea this morning to hit the keyboard and just see where it takes me.

Today is a new day.

I am wanting so badly to pick up a time machine at a store today, hop in it and just see. Just see where i will be in the next year , heck actually just the next couple days. Sometimes i see my self thinking and feelings this way often. Feeling as if i am not happy where i am . Thinking of how things could be sooo much better, thinking of how big of a mess i am, thinking about better jobs, better relationships with everyone in my life, worrying about money, and yearning for more more more. Its moments like this that i have to stop myself,stop my thought process and take it the other direction. All that i do know is that those are just thoughts, those are worries, those are merely "Whitney moments" and me allowing the doubts, confusions, and Satan's lies to enter my thought process. These things are not the truths that i need to be paying attention to . These aren't the things that i need to be focusing on. In these moments of trouble and despair , i do know that there is truth to the one who created me. I DO know that i was created to serve, glorify and honor Him. I do know that i was created to be his light, " No one lights a lamp and puts it in the cellar or under a basket,but on a lamp stand so that those who come it may see its light. Your eye is the lamp of the body . When your eye is good,your whole body is also full of light. But when it is bad, your body is also full of darkness. Take care then that the light in you is not darkness . If there fore your whole body is full of light, with no part of it in the darkness, the whole body will be full of light, as when a lamp shines its light on you." Luke 11:33-26..

In reading that this morning. I stopped and reminded myself that things could be worse, that God has blessed me with some incredible things, but more so when i dont realize it, that He has blessed me with the one thing that is ALL that matters. HIM. He has blessed me with His love , His mercy , His forgiveness, His loyalty, His TRUTH. When I think i have it "SO BAD" I remember what He has done for me. And remember the most important thing is to walk in obedience to Him and His word. To be an example of who He is and to make sure i am full of His light, and let it SHINE.

I pray its a day full of blessings for all of you.

in His love and mine,
W.

Change.

This is borrowed from someone, but i LOVE it. Hit me right where it needed to :)



Change can be scary. It requires you to step out of your comfort zone, and make a step forward into something new. But, I have learned that my ultimate responsibility is to MYSELF and to God, and if that requires me to make some changes, so be it. I'm no longer going to procrastinate in becoming the person God wants me to be. Making changes means improving! I know that only I can change my life- no one can do it for me. One of the most courageous things you can do, is identify yourself, know who you are, what you believe in, and where it is you want to go… then GO THERE! The more effort you put into something, the more you will get in return, and in order to accomplish anything in life, you can't just sit back and hope it will happen… you have got to make it happen!

The first step toward change, is acceptance. Once you accept yourself, you open the door to change. I know now, that change is not something you do, but it's something you allow. By challenging yourself, and opening yourself up to change, you may very well be surprised at what strengths you have, and what you can do! I've learned that if I don't like something, then I can change it, and if you can't change it, you must change your attitude! Remember: If you change your thoughts, you will change the world you live in. I'm one to know that things don't always go the way I think they should go. Sometimes, I feel like I'm constantly being put in the wrong direction, and every way I go, leads to one weakness after another. But, I know now, that if you build upon your strengths, your weaknesses will gradually take care of themselves.

When you're faced with a challenge, always look for a way, not a way out. The first step to getting the things you want out of life, is to decide what you want! But, above all else, NEVER think you're not good enough! I have definitely learned that you should never stop doing your best just because one person doesn't give you the credit you're looking for. Things will happen in your life that you can't stop, but that is no reason to shut out the world. There is a purpose for the good and the bad, and you will never get much done in life, if you're only working on the days when you feel good.

Everyone is faced with problems, but there is NO EXCUSE for doing the wrong thing. You should never look down on anyone unless you're helping them up, and always remember, it doesn't take strength to hold a grudge… but it takes strength to let go of one. There are some hard lessons to be learned in life. It takes strength and forgiveness. "KEEP IT SIMPLE!" Let go of hurtful situations in your life, and start moving on with your own happiness! For every person who doubts you, and tries to bring you down, you try twice as hard to prove them wrong. Always look on the positive side of things, and concentrate on how far you've come, rather than how far you have left to go in becoming the person you're meant to be. Being willing to suffer brings great rewards, so don't let the low times keep you down. Learn from them, and reach for the high times.

One of the toughest things to remember and abide by, is you can't change the past. Think of it as a learning experience that got you from one end to the other. Worrying is a waste of time, and worrying won't change what happened or what's going to happen anyway. As simple as it sounds, you must try to be the best person you can be! Consult not in your fears, but in your hopes and dreams. Think not about your frustrations, but about your unfulfilled potential. Concern yourself not with that you tried and failed in, but what is still possible for you to do. Having a role model in life is a great thing to have- someone who provides us with direction and inspiration. However, we will forever be restricted by that person's limitations if we only live within THEIR boundaries. You should live your own life, and live up to your own expectations. You've got to fight against the urge to try to say and do what other people want of you. That's not how you earn any respect. Be influenced by others, but always set your own standards. Don't put up with how others treat you, if you deserve better. You're much bigger, and much better than to settle for ANYTHING less than what you deserve.

There are some things in life that you are just simply not meant to be, so don't waste your time and tears trying to be them. If you must trust anyone in life, let it be yourself and God. If you don't do things right the first time, when will you ever find time to do it over? Accept EVERYTHING about yourself. I mean, everything! You are YOU, and that is the beginning and the end. The only way you can truly control how you are seen, is by being honest all of the time. The power of one man or woman is doing the right thing, for the right reason, at the right time. Don't only help yourself in life, but try to help those truly in need, because you never know when you'll need the same support. If I were asked to give what I consider the most useful bit of advice for others, it would be this: Expect trouble as an inevitable part of life, and when it comes, hold your head high, look it in the eye, and say, "I will be bigger than you. You WILL NOT defeat me."

It is your attitude that determines success or failure. Forgive yourself when you mess up. Learn from your mistakes. The past is the past. Learn from what went wrong, and why… then drop it and move on! Follow your heart, and in God's foot-steps, because it is the only right way out of darkness. This is MY time. From here on out, I will focus on myself, and my GOD, and no one will ever see me quit, because I simply won't. I will finish it, and I will do it well. :)

Once again.

For me it always seems like the second i get to where i want to be, once i get to the place where i feel i am closet to God, closest to myself, and closest to moving forward, something always gets in my head and gets my thoughts just a goin. Gods love has never left me, i may turn my head at times, and forget about what is really important to me, but God is what can NEVER change with me. The second i become distant from him , i become distant from all that is around me. What an amazing God i do serve. When i fall, his hands are there to catch me, when i mess up BIG time, he is right there reminding me of who i am, and who he created me to be.

God how foolish i am to put other things infront of you, before you. Please forgive me for being so distant, and for me not being strong when i should have. Forgive me for letting things get in the way of you and what you are trying to show me. I am not ok with being distant from you. I love you.... Show me that grace of yours :)

Keep Your head up and keep shining folks. God is always there, open hands, ready to pick you up and take you right where he wants you.

God is so good.

Monday July 7th. Being still.

Be Still and know that he is God? That is right.

There are so many times in life when we want to figure everything out. When we want to know why things are the way that they are and why things happen the way that they do. There are so many moments of sitting, waiting and asking why? . Over the lat coupe of weeks i have reminded myself of what Gods grace and mercy is all about. How could i have ever let my self slip from something that feels as good as this. God is LOVE and he can do anything.

Most people who know me , have probably heard me say " im confused" more than anything else that i have ever said. I live my life walking around with a question mark on the top of my head. Everywhere i go and everything i do i sit and question over and over again before ever making a decision. I find reasons to do and not to do everything in my life. with this "great" quality of mine, ha. come the inability to move in any direction at all. ...For over a year now i had been sitting in the same place, wondering why things werent changing, wonding why things werent making sense, and wondering why when i did make a decision, it never worked out the way that i wanted it to or the way that i expected it to.

I had forgotten what it was like to be completely desparate for God, I was turning to everything else for advice, friends, family, books, anything to give me answers. I was waiting on God to pop me in the head with a frying pan and instantly, my lifes purpose would be branded on my forehead. Ha was i wrong.


God got me right where he knew i needed to be. DESPERATE! With moments such as this i have never seen so clearly, how God places, desires in our hearts. My desire to be more like him, to spread his word, to open myself completely up to him and tell him strait up ... " USE ME". My heart longs to make a differance, to feed hungry mouths, to be to others what God has been to me. The desires of this heart of mine have always been here, have always been right in front of me. Its time for me to stop trying to figure everything out, for me to let God continue moving in my life and for me to continue becoming all that he created me to be.Its time for me to dig deep , Be Still, seek him, and know that He IS GOD..