Still standing.

Beautiful you.

Beauty is what exactly ? The way we see ourselves ? They way others see us ? In the previous chapter I read in So Long Insecurity, Beth talks about how we as woman, also your girls can easily be warped into thinking that the air brushed models on the covers of magazines, the Victoria Secret models walking the runway , define beauty. I cant tell you or begin to think of how this has been a personal struggle for me. To pick apart every part of who I am , what I look like, what I want to look like and so much more. In all honesty, It saddens my heart to think of all the ways I have allowed the media to effect my confidence and even more so to know how many of you are along with me. All the lies I told myself about my value and my worth for so long. It breaks my heart thinking about how easily media and society can corrupt the minds of teenage girls and enable their confidence in themselves to dwindle. .......I want to get past this. I do know that the God I love and serve loves me.

I'm a child of God. He created me in His image, and he believes everything is good!

Can we all just grasp that for a second ?

YOU are a child of God. He created you in His image, and he believes EVERYTHING is good.

Ladies ,

We can do this. We can fight this battle. We are BEAUTIFUL.... just the way we are.

There could never be a more beautiful you.

Beautiful, Beautiful

There is something about the lyrics...
I have come undone

But I have just begun
Changing by Your grace

Can we say an AMAZING reality ? That when we have come undone, when we have made a mess of ourselves, when things arent the way we have planned them to be, when we have become something we arent proud of, He can chage us. His love, grace, gentleness,and mercy can change us.


Today God has shown me that reality, that He can change where I am. That he does have the authority over my life, that he is my source of strength and comfort. and more than ever that HE IS FAITHFUL! He will provide a way.


Beyond grateful for an amazing day with some amazing girls, amazing encouragement.


" Because you are precious in My sight and honored , and I love you "


Isaiah 43:4


Thank You Aubrey for some great girl time and dinner, and Tara I can't thank you enough for your sweet and loving encouragement and scripture yesterday .

Love you all, See ya manana.

So Long Insecutity

Can you say "Amen " to that one ?.. I know I sure can .


Let me break it down even further as good ol' Beth did ...

" Insecurity refers to a profound sense of self-doubt, a deep feeling of uncertainty about our basic worth and our place in the world. Insecurity is associated with chronic self-consciouness, along with chronic lack of confidence in ourselves and the anxiety about our relationships. The insecure man or woman lives in constant fear of rejection and a deep uncertainty about whether his or her feelings and desires are legitimate.

" The insecure person also harbors unrealistic expectations about love and relationships. These expectations , for themselves and for others, are often unconscious. The insecure person creates a situation in which being disappointed and hurt in relationships is almost inevitable. Ironically, although insecure people are easily and frequently hurt, they are usually unaware of how they are unwitting accomplices in creating their own misery."







Over the past week or so , I have dove deep into this book and into scripture and I can confidently say that Momma knew what she was doing when she sent it . Gods timing is perfect and I am seeing now how this ongoing battle in my life, if not beat, cant be the end of me. As I go through this , I will be posting and updating anything I am learning and anything that stirs this heart of mine. I am hopeful in all that God has to show me through this and I know He will.

How many of us woman fight the battle of insecurity ? I am fighting this battle with you :)

It's time I say too.... " So long insecurity, you've been a bad friend to me ".

I pray deeply that as I share with you my journey through this , that God blesses your very heart and leads you to a place of understanding just how SECURE you can be.







"A woman of beauty knows in her quiet center, where God dwells that he finds her beautiful, has deemed her worthy,and in Him she is enough"


Many Many Blessings,
Whit

His Purpose.

Over the last couple of weeks, God has been doing some work in this heart of mine, that is for sure! It still amazes me that through anything and everything in life that who He is is CONSTANT. Who He is does not change. His love really does endure forever. In learning more and more about who He is and who He is for all of us, I can get caught up in trying to do the same for me. Im always wondering and asking the qustions.. What should the next step should be?, where I need to be??, what I need to be doing , Who i need to invest in?, Where do i need to live ?, Where do i need to work ?


I dont know if i have ever been at the point where I am now, in realizing that the "I"s dont matter. I was not created to work where I want to work , do the things that I want to do , Love those I want to love, Move to the places I want to live. My whole purpose in ever being created.... is to live the life that God has called me to live. My whole purpose may never be to get married, have a family, own a Salon... ( throwing that desire out there ; ) My purpose is Him. To love the way HE loves. To live the way HE lives. To Be an example of who HE is. ....


I am a woman who wants to see big things happen. A girl who wants to make a difference in the lives of all that are around me....and more so those that arent. I am a girl who wants to be a light to those in the dark. I am a woman who wants my whole focus to be on Him and Him alone. I want to love , honor and cherish all that He has done for us. I want to go where He sends me. I want to be Silent enough to hear just where that is. I want to help further His kingdom , and bring people to Him. My life is not my own to live. I am a woman who wants to do her best at keeping Christ the center of my every day thoughts, decisions, and next steps.

" God , My prayer to You is to help me live this out. Thank you for being the God you are."
Amen.

Birthday Boots : )

Happy Birthday to me :) . wow. Its crazy to think its been 23 years since Ive been here on this earth . Its even crazier to think about all the places I have been and seen, the friends I have made a long the way, the places I have moved to, away from ,etc. Its a blessing to look back over the last years and see just how good God is. When i look back , its obvious to see the things that i don't want to though. Its easy to remember the not so easy moments, the rough memories, the times when I have been disappointed. The times that didn't then, and still don't make perfect sense. Man if you know this girl at all ...its been 23 years of " I dont know" and " Im confused". Its been 23 years of "What if this?" " What if that? ".Golly thank you all who have been a part of it. I know it can be rough loving on me at times. ha.


This year is gonna be different. Im gonna make it different, and pray for God's strength to make it a better year than ever before. I want to stop the questioning. I want to stop the worrying and i want to stop the What ifs. Gods been doing a number on this heart over the last month, and I am so ready to see where He takes me next. Im ready to stop dwelling on the the things of the past, of the things that i dont understand , and focus more on the one thing that has remained constant over the last 23 years.... Who God is. His unfailing love. What He did for ME, for all of us. : ) ...




I pray its a sweet day for all of you!


" I will praise you forever for what you have done; In YOUR name I will hope, for your name is good" Psalm 52:9

Way to long.

Its definitely been awhile since Ive wrote and boy the places life has carried me. Ive been writing here and there on papers around the house and during quiet times writing out things randomly. I had the great idea this morning to hit the keyboard and just see where it takes me.

Today is a new day.

I am wanting so badly to pick up a time machine at a store today, hop in it and just see. Just see where i will be in the next year , heck actually just the next couple days. Sometimes i see my self thinking and feelings this way often. Feeling as if i am not happy where i am . Thinking of how things could be sooo much better, thinking of how big of a mess i am, thinking about better jobs, better relationships with everyone in my life, worrying about money, and yearning for more more more. Its moments like this that i have to stop myself,stop my thought process and take it the other direction. All that i do know is that those are just thoughts, those are worries, those are merely "Whitney moments" and me allowing the doubts, confusions, and Satan's lies to enter my thought process. These things are not the truths that i need to be paying attention to . These aren't the things that i need to be focusing on. In these moments of trouble and despair , i do know that there is truth to the one who created me. I DO know that i was created to serve, glorify and honor Him. I do know that i was created to be his light, " No one lights a lamp and puts it in the cellar or under a basket,but on a lamp stand so that those who come it may see its light. Your eye is the lamp of the body . When your eye is good,your whole body is also full of light. But when it is bad, your body is also full of darkness. Take care then that the light in you is not darkness . If there fore your whole body is full of light, with no part of it in the darkness, the whole body will be full of light, as when a lamp shines its light on you." Luke 11:33-26..

In reading that this morning. I stopped and reminded myself that things could be worse, that God has blessed me with some incredible things, but more so when i dont realize it, that He has blessed me with the one thing that is ALL that matters. HIM. He has blessed me with His love , His mercy , His forgiveness, His loyalty, His TRUTH. When I think i have it "SO BAD" I remember what He has done for me. And remember the most important thing is to walk in obedience to Him and His word. To be an example of who He is and to make sure i am full of His light, and let it SHINE.

I pray its a day full of blessings for all of you.

in His love and mine,
W.